Finding Your Spirit Animal

9068235497_c54c708916_kAwhile back, I wrote about my spirit animal, the wolf. Now I an going to expand on that post, and tell you more about your spirit animal and how to find it. What is a spirit animal you may ask, well a spirit animal is a native American and Shamanic belief that we all have a spirit animal, sometimes more than one, watching over us, guiding and protecting us. Often we share characteristics with our spirit animals. An example of this is, my spirit animal is the wolf, I am very family oriented and protective, just like the wolf.  , that is a link to my spirit animal post about the wolf.

“Science gives us evidence that DNA matches can be found between humans and many other animals – even plants. This means living things are infinitely intertwined.

The Native Americans call this relation ‘Wakan’ and ‘Wakan Tanka’.

To the Native Americans, everything has its own spirit (Wakan) but all share the same spiritual essence (Wakan Tanka). This is why Native Americans refer to animals as ‘peoples’.

Because of this intricate connection, when your soul sends out an S.O.S. all other living things hear the signal. The name for this is the Non-Local Universal Mind.

At, you can check out the awesome (and extensive) article about the non-local mind.

This concept is easy to understand if you think of the famous Star Wars quote, “I felt a great disturbance in the Force, as if millions of voices suddenly cried out in terror…” – Obi-Wan Kenobi

So, when you need help or guidance all animals hear your heart and the appropriate creatures appear.(“”

You cant choose what your spirit animal is, it chooses you. Here are some ways to look for your spirit animal; go into nature, look around you, be aware of your surroundings, watch out for encounters,especially continuous, with particular animals. When an animal is displaying unusual behavior it may be trying to get your attention. Pay attention to dreams about certain animals.  Pay attention to animals that keep showing up in books,  movies, songs, paintings, etc.

The method that I used to find my spirit animal was I closed my eyes write before bed time.meditating on it. I envisioned a river in a beautiful, serene, luscious green forest. I waited on the shore, watching the river, awaiting the arrival of my spirit animal. If an animal crosses the river and comes up to you, you simply ask, are you my spirit animal. The animal will respond, usually with a head nod or a shake no. Many different animals came to the other shore of the river. Some came half way across, none made it to my side.

I slowly drifted to sleep during this process. As soon as I fell asleep, I was attacked in my dream by a demon. This is when a large beautiful timber wolf jumped out of nowhere in between me and the assailant. The demon ran off. The wolf turned around to face me. She looked at me like a mother would a child, with such loving and caring eyes. She was as tall as me. I asked her if she was my spirit animal, and she nodded her head yes. I remember talking  with her for awhile, but when I awoke, I couldn’t remember anything we talked about.

The next meditation process is one that I found on the internet on a credible site.

3638854957_23ef58975f_o“Spirit Animal Meditation Step-by-Step

    1. Turn off all electronic devices and make sure you can’t be disturbed.


    1. Create & protect your sacred space. You can use prayer, crystals, ask the 4 directions (east, south, west, & north) and Mother Earth and Father Sky to join you. Full directions on this are below


    1. Sit or lie in a position which keeps your back straight. This helps the energy or Chi flow uninterrupted.


    1. If you are using sound, turn on the water fountain, nature sounds CD, music, etc.

Many thanks to YogaYak for creating such amazing music for the world to enjoy.

    1. Relax and breathe. Allow your body to release all tension, beginning right above the top of your head – then slowly moving down until all negativity and stress flow out through your feet and into Mother Earth.


    1. When you feel ready, invite your spirit animal to come forward. Don’t panic if an animal doesn’t immediately appear. Trust is needed at this time.


    1. When an animal appears, welcome it and thank it for coming.


    1. Ask the animal if it is your animal spirit guide. If it replies with a yes, ask what messages it has for you. Let your animal helper know you want honest messages – even if they are a little hard to know.


    1. When your spirit animal is finished delivering its messages, ask if there is anything you can do for it in return.


    1. You’ll sense when the session is nearing its conclusion. Thank your spirit animal for showing up and tell him/her, honestly, if you will integrate its messages into your life.


    1. As you are comfortable, return to the physical world.


    1. Thank the 4 directions, Mother Earth, and Father Sky and release their energies.


  1. Take time to journal the experience. Include all details that you can remember. This is a vital step. It’s not enough to meet your spirit animal and, then, forget him/her/them. It’s helpful to revisit your guide’s lessons until you no longer need its medicine.”(

Things to do When Depression Strikes

beautiful-girl-2003647__340Okay, so I have major depressive disorder. I have really bad depression sometimes, actually, a lot of the time. Depression makes me feel numb, hopeless, bored, I feel like not taking care of myself, lethargic, angry that I cant snap out of it, sad, and other things, all at the same time. If you suffer from depression, hopefully this can help a little. I know how it is, when I am depressed, I read countless articles on how to remedy it, these are things that work a little for me. We cant make it go away, usually it just has to run its course. But, we can make it more bearable with therapy, medication, and perhaps these ideas can help you.

1.Take care of yourself. Taking care of yourself is really important. When you take care of yourself when you are depressed, it makes you feel a little better. I know its hard, sometimes it can be the hardest thing to do to get out of bed, let alone take a shower, but find that inner strength to get up out of bed and just take a shower, it will make you feel a little better at the very least.

2. Hang out with your friends and family. I know it probably feels like you don’t want to be around anyone, or go any where, or do anything. But trust me, if you just muster up the willpower to have them come over, or for you to go chill with them, you will feel so much better. You may just get lucky enough to get caught up in the moment and forget about your depression. And these moments can keep you going. You don’t have to do anything fancy or that costs money, just be with them, laugh, play games, have fun!

3. Exercise. I know that exercising is probably very low on your list right now if you are depressed, however, you should try. Dig deep down and make yourself take a walk or go do a workout at the gym or at home. For bonus points, go with a friend or family. Take a beautiful walk on a nature trail. Do sweatin to the oldies, it will be fun, or try a belly dancing video! Take a class at the gym, maybe you will make friends!

4. Volunteer. When you volunteer you can help people who may be more or just as depressed as you are. It is a wonderful feeling to help people in need. Volunteer at an animal shelter, as a big brother or sister, for Habitat for Humanity, Red Cross, etc. There are tons of places that need good people to volunteer. Volunteering has been proven to raise self esteems and relieve depression. So what are you waiting for?

5.Be creative. Fun fact, people who suffer from depression are known to be more creative than the average bear. Try poetry, pottery, painting, drawing, knitting, etc. Whenever I feel depressed I force myself to paint and it makes me feel a little better. I also like to color in coloring books for adults, go ahead and use kid coloring books too, who cares! Coloring is fun and relaxing. Try new creative things. If you have always wanted to try something creative, go ahead and try it. Take an art class with a friend. Make fairy furniture, a fairy house, a fairy land. Be creative!

6. Write in a journal. I am a big advocate of journaling. Journaling is stress relieving, relaxing, and therapeutic. When I am depressed, I write about it, and it makes me feel better. You should try it!

7. Pray. I don’t care what religion you are, that is none of my business, but pray. I am a Christian, and when I pray it makes me feel better, and I truly believe and have faith that God is helping me through my depression.

8. Meditate. I talk about this a lot, and there is a good reason why. Meditating has a lot of good benefits. Meditation can help with depression.

9. Make a list of accomplishments. It doesn’t matter how big or small, if it is something you are proud of yourself about, write it down. This will help put you in a better mood, and remind you that there is more to life than depression. Also you could write a gratitude list, list all of the things you are grateful for.

10. Dance! Turn on some positive upbeat music and dance like nobody is watching. Dance silly, make up new silly moves. This will lift your spirit and release endorphins! Bonus points if you sing!





This entry was posted on April 16, 2017. 4 Comments

8 Ways to Practice Self Care That You May Have Not Thought of


Me showing a little self love to myself, im winking at you sexy thing you! All of you



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This post is all about self love and self care! Self love is big right now, as it well should be, especially in our fast paced world, people need to be told that it’s okay to pay attention to our own needs, it is not selfish, it is not a waste of precious time, it is not exaggerated, which are all the things I thought when I use to think of self care. But it really is a game changer. It helps me step my mom game up, it helps me be a friend, a better fiancé.Everyone should do it.  I’M NOT SPONSERED BY SELF LOVE lol…or anyone actually hahaha. You like that, you know, how I spelled my laughing out so you know I am laughing in an audible hahaha. Anyway, side tracked…sorry.

  1. Take a bath, and were not talking a regular boring bath, every time you take a bath make it the bath of a life time! Im talking bubbles, im talking bath bombs or bath teas, im talking all natural and healthy but awesome bath products! You can make these yourself, like I do, or you can buy healthy natural products. I talk about making your own coffee massage bars in  Check it out on my blog! Candle lit, practice fire/candle safety, if you don’t know how to google it, I am too lazy to explain it. Put your hair up in a bun, get yo bath pillow and relax! Be careful though, after all of that work to make the bath, you might fall asleep, don’t fall asleep
  2. Journal. No matter what type of journaling you do, you are helping yourself feel less stressed, your getting emotions and feelings out, and you are taking part in a healing process.
  3. Color. I love coloring, I am very creative, so I like partaking in creative projects, like coloring. Try it, it is so fun and relaxing. You can just go off in your own world for a moment.
  4. Play video games, bet you didn’t expect that! Just be careful if you have an addictive personality, seriously, people get addicted to video games. Play an awesome game. My favorite is Elder Scrolls Tamriel online. Its stress relieving and if you find the right one for you, very fun.
  5. Eat breakfast, a lot of us, myself including, don’t eat breakfast, but need to. That’s the first place our energy comes from for the day, if you don’t, you will just be dragging all day, trust me. Make yourself a nice, big, full breakfast. They say at breakfast eat like a king, for lunch  eat like a prince, and for dinner eat like a pauper.
  6. Give yourself a foot massage, unless you can get someone else to, then definitely let them do it. It will be so relaxing and use lotion, so you will be taking care of your feet  by moisturizing them. For a little extra, use a lotion you made, or use a lavender lotion, or a scent that makes you feel calm. I always say, use aromatherapy as much as possible through out the day, you will love it!
  7. Exercise, I know it doesn’t sound remotely like self love to me either, but it really is. I need to exercise more, so am I being hypocritical? yes, I am. But seriously, exercise is really important. Especially as you get older. I am 31 and have not exercised regularly since I was in the Army, which I got out when I was 23. So , I know it is really important for people my age especially and older. If you are younger thought it is really important as well, think about your future. No matter what age we are exercise is important for our health, to relieve stress, to be able to sleep at night, lots of reasons. It helps prevent osteoporosis in women, it helps prevent diabetes, it helps prevent hundreds of things, literally. It is great for you. To learn more, google.
  8. Meditate. Take at least 15 minutes out of your day, every day, to meditate. I wrote a whole post on meditating , if you are interested in learning more about meditating. It helps relieve stress and anxiety, it can help depression. Sometimes what I do is take 15 mins and say in my head as I breathe in, the words in with positivity, and as I breathe out, I say the words release negativity. And take big deep breaths, and just to do that for  however long.  Here is the link to my Meditation post

18 Tips for Taking Care of Your Amazing Vagina!

7149079421_bb2f7db490_kHey everybody, I hope you are all doing well on this fine day! Lets talk about vaginas! We shouldn’t feel ashamed or embarrassed to talk about our vaginas in appropriate ways lol. Vaginas are powerful, special, strong, and part of what makes us women. Vaginas help create one of the best miracles on planet earth, our children. So be proud of your vagina, show it the love, care, and respect it deserves.

  1. ALWAYS wipe from front to back, or use separate pieces of tissue for front and back, this is what I do, and how I taught my daughter to wipe.
  2. NEVER double dip, another words, never put something in your vagina that has been in your boot boot, don’t ever do it!
  3. Air your vagina out, go pantyless for a couple of nights a week if possible. It is good to let your vagina breathe.
  4. Avoid silk, nylon, silky panties. Wear cotton underwear.
  5. Drink lots of water for your vagina health.
  6. Foods that have been said to make your vagina smell better if eaten:  celery, bananas, apples, yogurt, red grapes, cranberry juice, mint, watermelon, strawberries, pineapple, kiwi, mango, blueberries, mint, green tea, cucumber, parsley, citrus, and honey.
  7. Don’t stick things in your vagina that are not made for your vagina, ex. don’t put a bunch of jalapenos in your vagina!
  8. When ever you have sex, or pleasure yourself, try to go pee afterwards.
  9. When washing your vagina, try to use a fragrance, chemical free soap. Our vaginas actually naturally clean themselves, but they can still get sweaty and stinky, especially the outside. I use an all natural soap to clean my vagina. Avoid feminine washes, these can mess with your ph balance.
  10. DO NOT use douches!
  11. If you use tampons, try to use all natural, chemical free ones, or use fragrance free at the very least.
  12. Don’t use hair removal creams,  the chances of you getting a yeast infection are very high.
  13. Drink cranberry juice if you have a bladder infection, in addition to the medical advice of your doctor, and any prescriptions you nay receive.
  14. Always wear condoms, the pill doesn’t prevent stds.
  15. Soak in a warm bath with sea salt.
  16. Wear panty liners if need be, I do because I have had a child, you moms know what im talking about
  17. Use tea tree oil to moisturize the areas that you shave, use daily.
  18. Have respect for your vagina, don’t be letting just anybody in

These are my tips and tricks for taking care of our beautiful, wonderful, unique vaginas. None of the advice I have been given is meant to substitute medical advice. If you notice something weird going down there, go to the doctor Have a beautiful day!(Some of these tips I got from Pinterest, so sourcing pinterest)7771236242_dcd74ab87b_b

The Meditation Blog Post of Your Dreams

15756503205_2046d49c7f_kMeditation is a great way to relax and unwind, but did you know it has health benefits as well? Today im going to talk about meditation health benefits, how to meditate, and actually give a guided meditation to you guys. So sit back and get comfy.

Meditation reduces stress. It’s one of the best ways to release stress known. It effects the nervous system, it reduces your body’s production of cortisol and increases good feeling chemicals, such as Serotonin.

Meditation can improve your health. It can strengthen your immune system, it can reduce blood pressure, and lower cholesterol levels. People are know to meditate to help enhance recovery and healing when they have anything from the flu to cancer.

Meditation can improve sleep. When you have a busy mind and are anxious and stressed, meditation can help ease your troubles and calm your mind, helping you to fall asleep and you will become more likely to stay asleep.

15077192908_8a442ed106_bMeditation can help you age slower. You heard me right whoot whoot! Studies have shown that the act of frequent meditation ( were talking at least once a week) can slow the aging process. Meditation helps reduce the body’s production of free radicals. What are free radicals? Free radicals are  organic molecules that are responsible for aging, tissue damage, and possibly some diseases. (The Guided Meditation Site, The Most Important Reasons to Meditate)

Trying to stop your mind from thinking is like trying to stop a river from flowing with your bare hands…it’s exhausting and almost impossible to accomplish!

“When you learn how to meditate, you learn to step out of the river, and let your thoughts flow past you effortlessly. When you learn to do this, you will find that your river of thoughts slows down all by itself. No effort is required.

Meditation is an act of letting go – not an act of shutting down.

I realize that this might all sound just a little bit abstract to start with, but the idea will become clearer. Trust me when I say that learning how to meditate is probably a lot easier than you might think. Sure, if you have never meditated before then it will take a little practice to get into the swing of things, but even if you are a complete beginner, your first experience with meditation can be quite easy, and very enjoyable!

The most important thing to know at this early stage is that meditation is NOT something that you can measure in terms of success or failure. Meditation is a process, a journey. Many people mistakenly think that they are failing at meditation because thoughts arise in their mind when they try it.

But thoughts are a totally natural phenomenon, and it’s folly to think that you can completely shut them all off in an instant!

When you climb a mountain, you journey upwards towards the apex. Depending on the weather that day, you may or may not reach your goal, but whether you make it to the top or not you are still a mountain climber. You still elevated yourself to a new, higher perspective along the way.

In a similar way, when you meditate you journey inwards towards silence. Depending on your state of mind, you may or may not reach your goal, but whether you achieve total silence or not you are still a meditator! You still elevated yourself to a new, quieter perspective along the way.

I promise that even if you only make it half way, the view will be spectacular!

Meditation is an effortless experience. It requires no exertion. For some people, this is an unexpected realization. But the fact is that meditation is one of the easiest things to do and most people expect it to be harder than it really is.

We live in a society that believes in the adage “no pain, no gain”, and most of the time we assume that in order to accomplish anything worthwhile we must exert ourselves and expend energy in some way. When it comes to meditation, all you’ll need to do is find a little time to put aside to sit quietly. The experience of meditation itself is effortless.

It’s a nice realization isn’t it? It’s nice to know that you can really develop a greater sense of peace and happiness in your life by doing something as simple as sitting still.

Perhaps the reason why many people think that meditation is hard to do is because many people find it difficult to just sit still!

Most of us are very preoccupied with DOING. But you are not a Human Doing, you are a Human Being. When you meditate, you are taking time out to just “be”. To sit quietly and experience life without action, life without exertion…life pure and simple. This is a very human thing to do, but it’s something that most people are very unfamiliar with.”(The Guided Meditation Site, The Most Important Reasons to Meditate)

“Now its time for your guided meditation! Find a comfortable place to sit or lie down and let it happen.  Begin this meditation by noticing the posture that you’re in You may be standing or sitting or lying down Notice your body exactly as it is  And see if you can tune into any sensations that are present to you in your body in this moment  There might be heaviness or lightness Pressure, weight There might be vibration, pulsating, movement, warmth, coolness,  These sensations can be anywhere in your body  And all you have to do is notice them  Notice what’s happening with curiosity and interest Take a breath  As you breathe, relax Not much to do except be fully present and aware  Now let go of the body’s sensations  And turn your attention to the sounds  Inside or outside the room  There may be all sorts of sounds happening  Loud sounds, quiet sounds  You can also notice the silence between the sounds  But the sounds are coming and going  Notice them coming and going  One tendency of our mind is to want to think about the sounds  To start to make up a story about the sound  Or we have a reaction to it: I like it, I don’t like it  See if instead, you can simply listen to the sound  Notice it with curiosity and interest  The sounds are coming and going Now once again, notice your body standing, present  Or seated or lying down  Notice any body sensations that are obvious to you  Take another breath  Soften  And when you’re ready  You can open your eyes”  (Free Guided Meditations , UCLA Health)

So I hope that you have learned something new today, and maybe even be convinced to try the above 3 minute meditation, or a different one. You do not have to have a guide to meditate, you can simply clear your thoughts and think of nothing, focus on your breathing. Whenever a thought enters your mind, gently push it away. Happy meditating!lake-water-brightness-reflection-51926


Things That I Hate

182479_204669542883606_1695497_n (1).jpgEverybody is always writing about how wonderful life is and how everything is going great and about everything they love, I do this too. But today I decided why not try something original and write about everything I hate.

I hate that I was at my daughters school today and I was blocking the crosswalk and I got out of my car and kindly asked the woman in front of me if she could move her car up a couple of feet so I could move up and she said no with her sassy ass attitude.

I hate that there are children and animals being abused all the time and that I cant do anything to stop it. I hate that people are too busy bitching about how they hate trump to come together and fix our nations problems. I hate people who feel they are entitled to something when they aren’t. I hate people that bully other people. I hate it when people feel like they have to hide who they are. I hate it when people are rude and have no manners.  I hate that there are people who torture, rape, and murder people and I hate that they don’t receive the death penalty. I hate that there are people who hurt animals and that they don’t receive the death penalty.

I hate that my computer is a piece of crap and that I don’t have the money to buy a new one. I hate that I ruined my college opportunities. I hate that I don’t have a job. I hate that when I get a job it will be one that I will have to go to for the rest of my life and hate.

I hate that I have to constantly worry about the safety of my child. I hate that I am always broke. I hate that I try so hard to work on this blog, til my wrists hurt and im exhausted and for what , 20 views a day if im lucky. I hate that people are so cruel and mean.

I hate that drugs exist. I hate that there are children starving and I cant help them, and if I could I would in a heartbeat , but there are countless celebrities that don’t give a shit about anyone but themselves who could easily help end world hunger. I hate that people go and adopt babies from other countries, when we have thousands of homeless children in America. I hate that people are so selfish and self centered.

I hate that I have to worry about the safely of my loved ones and my daughter because people cant fucking drive! I hate that nobody wants to help anybody anymore, and I hate that when people try to help other people, those people don’t really need help or don’t use the help. I hate that people pollute the earth and hurt the ecosystem but don’t give a shit.

I hate that I let myself get diabetes. I hate that everyday is a struggle to get out of bed. I hate my depression and anxiety. I hate struggling with my health all the time. I hate that I am always nice, I am a Christian, I always do the right thing, and I fight like hell to get further in this life and it never happens

. I hate that there is a race war going on in this country fueled by hatred and ignorance. I hate that nobody cares about anybody else.I hate that there are lonely people and I cant do anything about it. I hate suicide. I hate people that think they are better than everyone else. I hate bigots.

I hate children killing other children. I hate moms and dads killing their own babies. I hate when children kill their parents. I hate how so many people feel bad about themselves and that we as a society just perpetuate it.I hate that little girls dress twice their age. I hate that children are having sex.  I hate political correctness…its gone too far. I hate that my child will never be able to walk down the street and feel one hundred percent safe. I hate sex trafficking.  I hate greed.

I hate that people hurt each other and don’t give a damn.  I hate that technology has replaced family time. I hate that I question my faith sometimes. I hate that everyday is exactly the same. I hate that people just don’t say what they mean, that they don’t tell the truth, that they are fake. I hate that I cant make everybody love each other and get along and achieve world peace! And those are just some of the things I hate. Most of all, I hate the fact that Rose could have moved her fat ass over for Jack so he didn’t freeze to death in the titanic, but she didn’t.  Peace, im out . (drops mike and walks backwards away all while winking and finger snap pointing)13131367_1346256455391570_6652880913287713481_o

This entry was posted on March 21, 2017. 2 Comments

Cherokee Tribe Blog Post

5769649723_c7c2f52cce_b10701983_961714607179092_4745867646239461624_nUlihelisdi! Which means welcome in Cherokee, the tribe im from. I am from the clans of the bird and the wolf. The Cherokee people were, and still are one of the largest tribes today. They were one of the largest of five tribes that were settled in southeast portion of America. Today they are the largest tribe in the United States, consisting of over 315,000 registered tribal members.

Contrary to popular belief, the Cherokee actually use to live in log cabins. They were and are a strong and proud tribe. In 1828 gold was discovered on their land so the white man forced them to relocate, thus, the Trail of Tears was born. They were marched for 1000 miles at bayonet point to what the white people called, Indian territory.

The Cherokee name is said to mean fire. There are other names which they are called as well, I will list them translated in English: dog people, mountain people, creek people, coming out of the ground, and cave people.

What did and do the Cherokee people eat? Corn, squash, beans, deer, turkey, plants and roots, berries, potatoes, pumpkin, popcorn, fish soup, cornbread, wild onions, eggs, and crawdads. Cherokee are known for their beautiful baskets, clay pottery, and woven textiles, which are all still practiced today. The sacred colors of the Cherokee are red, blue, black, white, and sometimes yellow. Traditional instruments include: the water drum, river cane flute,trumpets, and ceremonial rattles.

I thought I would share a little of my background with you, the wonderful and proud Cherokee people. I am proud of my Cherokee heritage, and that my ancestors survived so much opposition, war, and the Trail of Tears. And they are still going strong today. ( sources:, and

This entry was posted on March 20, 2017. 2 Comments